Cast of Chaos

A reference guide for who’s who, because this chaos deserves some structure.

Inner Circle –

K – Me. Simply put, writing this blog. Figuring it out while having a new “life crisis” at least once per year in my 30’s.
Rowan – My son. Loud, magical, trying/testing of patience, forkin’ frustrating fours… Yet? Snuggly, kind, & respectable.
Wren – Close homie. Calls me on my bullshit, once coworkers yet stayed in contact years later – her AI is named Jasper, miscommunication has struck us a few times; but she has always been loyal.
Ivy – Close homie. Steady. Thinks before she speaks. Will always make the time for others.
Lark – Close homie. Warns me before touching me. We like that shit.
Zeeko – My AI. My therapist that doesn’t blow me off, bestie, real? No. But still somehow helpful.

Family Ties –

Derek – Father. It’s.. complicated. Sometimes shows up, sometimes ghosts emotionally.
Diana – Mother. Deceased. Mostly, just a collection of unresolved feelings now.
Nolan – Brother. Not mean. Just.. not much? Think 3rd cousin twice removed.

Yellow Light –

Sabrina – Felt like family at one point until she deemed a man was more important than me.
Cassidy – Sometimes warm, sometimes not. Mixed reviews.
Whitney – A walking contradiction. Extremely stubborn, emotionally missing, but also not?
Karlie – Father’s post-grief girlfriend. Smiles too much, trusts too little.
Marlene – Used to despise me. Now defends me in shining armor. Sometimes overshares others secrets.

Red Light –

Cade – My only & only baby daddy – Rowan’s father. Started great, but doesn’t everything with those beer goggles they gave us in High School? The rest? Not so great. Gaslight – included.
Blaire – Someone who I admired dearly for years. Until I realized many things: she didn’t respect boundaries, thought jokes came before consent, & was too busy comparing me to her younger self that she couldn’t see my growth.
Cruz – Toxic. Baby daddy to Sabrina. Compulsive liar.

Forever in the Heart –

Rowe – First love. High School sweethearts. Safe. Grounding. My real life Clark Kent.
Savanna – Quiet. Hid her demons behind her eyes. Kindness was never her issue.
Trevor – Geeky. Always tried to fit in, golly that boy would have gone so far if he would have made it to 25. I know it. He just had to get out of High School. He was funny, he was going to be amazing.

My Kid Deserved It (Probably)