“I have love in life and I have lost, and that makes me both a lover and a mourner.” – Nikita Gill.
My Interpretation: I have included this one specifically because of it representing the cast of all that is grief & glitter. There are ghosts, the wreckage, the anchors, the warnings, & the wildcards. The ones I survived (barely) to the ones I still carry with me. The ones who helped me build a voice from silence to the ones who still make me question if my loyalty lies in the right place.
What Is The Cast Of This Chaos?
This is the master list of characters who appear in my stories – the ones I love, the ones I outgrew, the ones I grieve, & the ones who still make my eye twitch.
Some of them are family.
Some are friends, exes, almosts, & wildcards.
Some are ghosts I still carry.
To protect my real life (& my sanity), most people are written under aliases. The feelings are real. The names are not.
How To Use This Page:
Think of this as the program booklet for the show you accidentally walked into:
- Want to know who keeps showing up in the grief posts?
- Want to track which ex belongs to which disaster era?
- Want to remember who that one chaotic cousin was in the holiday stories?
The extended Cast of This Chaos page breaks it all down for you with:
- Names & aliases
- Roles in my life
- Timeline notes (who appears when)
- Quick reminders so you don’t have to play “wait, who is that again?” every other paragraph
Why I Built A Cast List At All:
Because this blog has turned into a whole universe: grief arcs, survival backstory, motherhood saga, found family, & a revolving door of humans who shaped me for better or worse.
I didn’t want you to have to click on fifteen different things just to remember who is who.
You deserve a cheat sheet.
Ready to Meet Them?
Click here to open the full roster, Easter-egg notes & all:
➜ Cast of This Chaos OG Style – Cast of Chaos
➜ Cast of This Chaos Extended Style – Cast of This Chaos – Updated 6/4/25
Xoxo ♡
